A large part of this came from how I feel, how discouraged I get, how defensive and scared and angry. And I know it's irrational and unproductive, so I try to be better.
I know what you mean. It's why I've taken failing better to heart so much. Because, I mean. I know at some point I am going to fail. We're all molded from an imperfect society that we need to constantly try to rise above, but that is deep within us, down to the bone. Engaging with that and rising above that is difficult, and there'll be a lot of falling on our asses along the way. But that doesn't mean we shouldn't try, and I truly believe we can always fail better.

Which is why I don't want to see RBR start to pull itself apart.
I'm sure RBR will continue on and (I really, really hope, because there are some amazing people) be fantastic. Questioning and debate are good things, even if they're not comfortable. I likely won't be around, but I know you all don't need me in this fandom to succeed and be better. *grin*

I'm not sure I'm being quite as coherent as I'd like to be here (see my latest post), but basically, even if I'm not around, I wish you all the best. ♥

eta: And I just want to add that "I know at some point I am going to fail." could be taken to imply that I haven't in the past, which couldn't be further from the truth. I have definitely gone pantsless in the past and sometimes I've had other people kind enough to take the time to point it out to me, and sometimes I've had to figure it out myself later and go "DDDDDDDDDDD:" at myself, you know? It is an ongoing education.

(And sorry for the multiple edits, but I'm, as I said, not feeling coherent, and I also want to add that "and sometimes I've had to figure it out myself later" shouldn't in any way be taken to mean that someone should have educated me, because with all my various areas of privilege, that burden of education most assuredly rests on me. And now I am going to stop editing, because lack of sleep + keyboard = not the greatest combination.)